ever felt like nothing right is going on in your life? like everything in life is revolving in different ways and it clashes into one another and stresses you up. so many things to do, so many things to take responsible off. and so many things you can't clear off your mind. you're so stress, and nobody wants to help you. you know nobody will help you, because they're the one who makes you angry, when you thought they're the only reason who could make you understand the word 'happy'. when everyone around you is feeling happy but not you, and you feel so small. or when you feel so happy but everyone's sad. i hate that. and i am always the person who is odd. i don't know what God has put up for me in life but this, this year. it's really making me really stressed up. if i could, i would end my life now. i can never stay happy for a long time and when i'm in bed about to sleep, i always cry. always. why? because there's too many things to think off, and to handle with. i am so tired. i am so tired, both mentally and physically tired. i wish i could rant it out to someone. i always did but this time, i just can't. it seems like a part of my life is missing. the missing part is a big one of my life. i am really tired. i can't hold too long, you know? just one day if things don't get better, i'll make the last decision i will ever make already.