don't feel right

Sometimes I don't feel right. Sometimes feel like i'm being despised by everybody. Sometimes when i wanna be myself, people just don't let me be. Sometimes i feel like people are controlling my life. Sometimes i wanna die, but i just keep it to myself. I always keep things to myself. I don't like sharing, i only share when i feel like. Otherwise, nobody can force me. I feel like i'm keeping things inside me too long, till it's eating my inner side up. Sometimes i feel like i'm being too nice till everybody is depending on me about their life. I don't want to burden everyone, i want to make everyone happy. I want to be there for them, anybody, who needs someone to talk to. I want to be there for them, i don't like seeing people sad. I want to help them. But at the same time, i need somebody too. Somebody who has never hurt me.