sigh, give me time.

I am getting tired of everything but i know, i can't give up. Because there's always a day i will be okay. But for my life, everyday. I'd be pissed, sad, or angry with someone or something. And i hate this. Everyone i knew, the one who made me survived till now, is beginning to leave me. I feel like, i am going to be alone in the end. I miss someone, very much. I missed him so much that i cried. Every "Three Cheers For Five Years - Mayday Parade" being played, it reminds me of him. And then i'll start to think of him. Sigh. Everything is cocked up in my life right now. Family. Family who make me very pissed everyday. I tell people, but i know i am just ranting. And nobody can change this. I know, my family do love me, and they over-cared me. But, they don't understand me. They don't give what every teenage girl or guy should have. They controlled me. They stop me from whatever they're doing and telling me to do on their on needs. I hate uncle. You and you damn fucking family, can fuck off from us. When mummy say something about your children, you didn't cared. You even told us to mind our own business. But us? What rights do you have to correct me. It's my life, it's my future. I know what i am doing. I don't live to please you, anyone of you. I do what i want to do. I shall not continue, because i cannot take it any further. To all those people out there, remember to treasure your life. I know i didn't. But our life's just the same. I'm trying to hold on, i am trying my very best to..

I miss you and i love you. Sigh.

Fuck my life to the maximum.