Hello i like you, you're cute.

I got some few things to rant out, but i shall do it at the end of the post. (: If you don't like it, then fuck off. This is my priority and i can write whatever i want. If you think it's you then good, but it really doesn't mean.

Okay, so on Wednesday!
Went to school with Affiey&Felly. Waited for them under Affiey's block then took bus @7.45. Reach around 8 or something. Toilet then canteen then hall. Had NIC. After that was Maths, boring. After that was Physics, 2 hours, gosh. But i can talk with Felly. :D Haha. Then she saw something and she scolded me. Oops. ^-^ Then it was recess. Some stupid monkey go throw a shoebag at Fyqqa's plate and it dropped on the floor so she bought a new one. Fuck the person hard man. Hm, after that was LAB. We did this Survey about our trip. And Mel&Shazryn were talking about Putera, Puteri's brother and he passed by. HAHA, was so fucking hilarious, his hair! HAHAHAHA! What eh what? Beros jamban, lolol!!!! And he got gf, but malaysian. Aw too bad, lol! After LAB was Mother Tongue. Did test for Bahagian A & B. Damn hard please. ): After that was english. The whole period was discussion for the Plot Map for our Narrative Essay. There were some laughing moment but i forgot what we laughed about, haha, oh well. Hm after school went outside wait for Taxi. HAHA FELLY HAHA! xD Don't wish to elaborate. At last took the big red cab(like want go Airport like that) but i swear inside was so damn fucking squeezy -.- Then drop at 962 bus stop. And bussessed home. Oh yes. When i was waiting for 882 right, i sat beside an auntie because there was no other space. She gave me a -_-" look, so i was like o_o? then she laughed. Lol.Very funny huh. And yeah at night i went on the phone with someone for idk how long. Thanks yeah, i'll try my very best to get _____ of my mind. Your words really wake me up :}

Thursday, yes yes today! :}
Went to school alone, yes alone. Reached school and settled down. After assembly all, it was Mother Tongue. And what the fuck, we got a Karangan test. Lol. Pray for me hard that i'll score well. :} Then it was PE. We did the what passing baton thingy. Paired up with Shazryn. Felly didn't attend PE because she lazy, lol. Then Mel was absent from school. Hm. After that was recess. Changed and drink blabla. Then it was Maths. Idk what we did, as usual. Haha. Talked with Dylan alot of things. I teach him Malay he teach me Chinese. But all the vulgars in Cyber i knew, i asked him. And he was like "Kau talk konek." -'- He said it was Hokien, the words that i say. O: Hm. After that was English. For the whole freaking period, i spent my time looking at people doing their compo. I did my essay already, and the rest didn't. Mr Sha said he give us 30 minutes, but we took up the whole lesson. Haha, yay. After English was history. Yay, lucky me i coloured my homework last minute. If not i got to stay back man. And i fucking failed my test by 0.5 marks. Urgh. ): I thought i did my very best. Ahhh. 12/25. And i got to let my parents freaking sign it, man. D: And we got 10 for our History Project. At least a pass, lol. After school, sat at bench for awhile then moved to canteen. I did Maths for while(copied Felly's). Then Enna treat me 2 black pepper chicken murtabaks :D Thanks Enna, :D Then took 913 with her. Then aft that i took 962, then bussed home. Hhe. (:

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Confusion

Whoever you are, i don't want to know. But please wake up. What do you really get behind all these? Hurting girls and stuffs. Do you know that is freaking lame. And i'm beginning to suspect who you are. But it's unbelievable. It is very hard to believe that, oh you're fake, you're really really fake. Because why? Who's the one who talked on the phone with me last time, who's the one who sacrificed her/his number and paid for like 100+ bucks, or idk how many. For just calling people. I mean, who in the world would ever spend his life entertaining this kind of people like us, and he's fake. And he's just a poser? Yeah, a poser. I can't really believe this. I mean, i can't believe this. Can you please tell me the truth. Because, i don't want my heart to be carried away with you, forever. I know there's someone who can treat me and take care of my heart better than you. I miss talking on the phone with you. But i'm afraid. I'm afraid that i will say something that will hurt you or something. I don't want to lose you. Really, sigh.
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Family

I realized that my mother, is more caring toward me and also my siblings. I mean, i see the change that the way she treat us from last time and this time. It's so different. She tends to give me more care than usual. I think she saw the scars. Yeah maybe. It's obvious when i'm doing my homeworks and stuff. I am sorry mummy. I love you and daddy so much and i can't bare to see you both like this. I am sorry i've failed you. I am just, stress. With everything, yes, with my life. I hate the way you and daddy treat me, over-controlled. But now it's okay. I just wanted you to understand, understand what i want. I love you, i really love you.

I'll try to be happy and i promise i won't do this stupid thing again because this is so stupid you know. No matter how much you hurt yourself life still has to move on and nothing can change the cycle of our life. I love my people and to those i've been harsh, i'm sorry. I don't mean it. I am a good person. :D