Hello peoplerrsss! (: I've hoped like many blogs now. And i've realized people have been linking me without my notice, hmphh! But i think it's unfair for me not to relink you, but its okay! Im lazy also (: So yeaaaaaah hi! Today, nvr woke up for sahur *I KNOWYOU NO NEED TO KNOW (:*. received two msges, from fel and miraaaah. Blahblah. Then i charged phone, received msg from F (: K then went to sch! Affiey was late, luckily we waited, haha. And we were ALMOST late, but tak lambat kan? Takp. K then Geo was the first lesson, i tried to pay attention. OOOHOH anw, i signed my report card today morning. I told mummy i got my CA marks and she was like OH? WHERE? ALL FAIL? And i feeel like crying k. How could she :( ! ALL FAIL. Talk ltr okay? Aft Geo was English, tak gerek cause Shafiq wasnt there. He went home. HE BEDEK AH HE! Migrain, wth? -.- K then recess, makan nasi ayam and minum air. k then it was MATHS, fucking. I actually dont understand but with the help of my peers, im able to (: Thanks people! You rock more than that mr.legong. K then, the bell rang to show that it was 11AM! It was actually dismissal time, but? that fucking teacher made the lesson longer until 12, wtfffffffff. K then finished worksheet beh took 913 with Affiey, Iyqa, Fel, Fyqa, Haziq, Shafiq. Beh i took 962 with Iyqa and went home. Im proud to announce that today is the starting of September holidays! (: I wanna meet Rhyna like fuck. K? But, i rilly need to study. I hope this September holiday gives me plenty of time to catch up with my studies *winks.

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This days, it's been too hard for me. I'm lacking of too much love and care. I began to think back all the things i get and what i strive to get. There's actually nuthing that came to me automatically. It's how i get it. I begin to realize that im not needed in this world. Yesterday, i cried for 3 whole fucking hours. Mummy began to hate me. Daddy also. They both, dont care about me. They both, dont let me do what i wanna do. They both, controlled me too much. I aint a kid anymore. I can do whatever i want. You both dont effing care about me okay? I cried like fuck yesterday and cut myself real deep. Sister, i talk, not happy come shout shout. Brother, very irritating. Pfffft. Maid, very talkative, talk so much. I dont like everybody in this house. And i missed Woodlands very much. Now? It's occupied by daddy's friend. And im rilly missing June. Im missing Grandmother. I wanted to rewind back to the time where i kissed her forehead for the very last time before she's gone. I miss those moment. Thats family. And now about friends. Now go this thing againnnnnnnnnnnn. I think i've been taken advantage too much. Im sorry to say this. But its like, true? Maybe friend comes in two. Im like sooo extra and damn slenger. And i know im lame at times, pfffft. And now studies, idk what to do? Mummy say must pass all subj, and i failed three, three F9. Woah? I dont know. Now, was the hardest time of my life. I wish to end life, soon. Very very very soon. Oh Allah, you challenged me to hard :( But everyday i kept thinking, why me? I never had, you knowwww. I never had any true, you know asking for you knowwwww. You knowwwww, i wish i could tell this something to someone. Someone who understand what i feel. I really wish to. But nobody seems to understand, you know. My family? I swear in my fucking family, i never talked to anybody about my secrets okay? Nobody seems to understand. Because everything i do is wrong to them. I dont know.. i really want to die this fucking second. Im, hopeless. And im scared for December. I hope, your gonna you knowwwww. Okaaaaaay, somebody? Mind listening to my problem? :( I wish i can hug someone right now. But it seems like everybody dont like me. :(

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone