30 July 2009

it hurts so much.

when you dont know how to love or like. when you dont know how to hate or love. love is cruel. there's only one choice behind two. sometimes, idk whether i should love you or hate you. because, you're unforgettable. im trying and trying, day by day to hate you. but why did you come back. and im trying and trying, day by day to love you. but why did you go. i don't understand you, or maybe this is what people call love. why must it hurt me so much.
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when you dont know how to live or die. when you dont know how to hold on or let go. life is hard. either you choose this or this. for me, i cant. why am i so useless. why am i so unlucky. what did i do wrong. i never ever had a single intention to hurt you, humans, people, everybody. but what did i get? hurt and pain. why must life be so tough ? i mean, why mine? what did i do wrong. why not other people? all the fascinating things they abiity they have. what about me? nothing. i owned nothing but sorrow. im tired of life, i just wanted to leave all this, agony and muchmuch pan. i wasted too much effort. im sorry. i failed to be your friend, your daughter, your partner, your people, your stranger. im worst than anybody. im sorry. but why do i have to receive the pain? i wonder what did i do wrong. until it hurts more than tumbling down the stairs. much more hurt.
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rumours eh? fuck off please.
who likes a retard!
omg, LAUGHS.
suck your own balls.

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